God damn-red brick, boy who cried wolf, my thin fingers-one more time, scream at the top of my lungs for the first time in yearsm yes you are that good, the way you squeezed my hand just a little right after i got off the plane, my all-time wishlist-milemarkers, there are no words no language, suitable to discribe you, i know i am so difficult, do everything you tell me not to, don't listen, don't shut my mouth, im learning,i want to be so much better for you, i know i do almost everything wrong, i really do just want you to be happy, cared for, loved so well, i know it seems like i will never stop being this way, have faith in me, i don't deserve it but i will get it right, i will get this right